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2k8, love/hate.

new year. starting over. airports. leaving wisconsin for good. cold grey days. sad sad sad. hope. antlers. a nameplate necklace and new dresses. valentine's day. lots of beards. stumbling around boston. my scarecrow's challenge. new camera for documenting journeys. more airports. sxsw. princesses of the internet united at last. ryan cabrera? disorganization. fake moustaches and fake cowboy tattoos. kittens. burlesque and kevin devine on the same stage. "you don't read pitchfork do you?" boston again. firsts. new york city. drifting apart, judgment. court's birthday. hilton room service pizza and professionally done makeup. silver tranny heels. hannah montana vip passes. glamour glamour glamour. secrets. praying in the k&m bathroom when it turned easter sunday. family. the icc. "why do you think?" cardigans. lisa frank stickers on sidekicks. lots of dancing. beautiful boys who get us in trouble. a trashy hotel room with two beds, one for sleeping. bagel bob's every saturday morning. breakdowns in dsw. laura on crutches. into the woods. matching stripes in the captain's room. lots of greyhound rides, four and a half hours each direction. first official boyfriend. the excitement of falling. visiting andover, a ghost town with no familiar faces. bamboozle. binge living. broken friendships. the big move to the burg. "they call him trainwreck for a reason." sink full of aids. epic cleaning. brass knuckles and teased hair. the chonga wall at dusk. the missing exclamation point. hanger bar fridays week after week. kickball, an excuse for drinking in the park. up all night. "he looks like the firefox logo!" young shields. a trash barrel full of sparks cans. matchy matchy memorial day. kerri's roof. 90s nostalgia. ryan cabrera? (again.) old habits die hard. love can't save me. broken screen on the vomputer. internship with sarah. nicole's beautiful apartment. a crazy july night with four friends old & new and one bed. the jonas brothers are a better band than hollywood lies. post-hedonism. no objective reality. maine rehab. "did the dog do that to you?" berry picking, lake swimming, canoeing. healing hugs from little kids. a welcome home. a green rope light. identifying with the joker's need for chaos. mall madness. bleached platinum. laura's birthday. holleration. "shut up and grow up." visit from amelia. writing on each other. not being insulated from pain. my 20th birthday. a midnight message from the girl i missed the most. kevin devine with ryan. homemade cupcakes. known some call is air am. tiger mending. jonbenet winehouse hair. searching. mourning something that's been dead for a while. new friends at nyu. frivolous. polaroids. hookah in my room and karaoke in koreatown. hypothyroidism making me think i had lyme disease. gothic lolita. back home for fall foliage. connecticut for carving pumpkins and october kisses. kidpix! a dark period. hibernation. new meds. dreamers. homecoming queen. de-escalate. smoking on a cold rooftop. a difficult decision. back for a few weeks of goodbyes. "this courtney love looking bitch!" sparks funeral. exploring identity. christmas and finally being a participant. irresponsible spending. new year.